Its not the time to do this
03.17.08 (12:07 am) [edit]Still let me.
I noticed that all my posts recently have been full of random and useless fundas and parts of thisas well equally qualify as the same.
Its that time of semester again when I need to be with books no matter how bored I get of them. But net hinders all my fake ambitions of getting a high gpa. I do it every internals and so let the last one be no different. I have got Safety Waste Management and Autocad to study for tomorrow. First SWM we have learnt in managing the teacher who teaches it, its almost synonymous. And god should help me with the latter as I know the 'fundastic' teacher wont here.
With all this piled up on head, I get enough time to while away almost 2-3 hrs on net, do random google searches, listen to last fm, read random blogs, and also post 3 here on a single day. God save me.
I also lost almost an hour today thinking all those totally unconnected things which are associated with engineering and engineers.
- Internet, google, design, blogs, online music and not forgetting chat.
- All sorts of western music, acid rock, punk rock, psychedelic rock, classic rock, hard rock, soft rock, also rap, hip-hop, blues and what not. Though fusion might figure in the list Indian classical music hardly does.
- Cigarettes, Booze, Dope, God save engineers(us).
- Search for all out of the way professions like radio jockey, social networking sites, movie making etc
The other sex
03.16.08 (8:18 pm) [edit]Today this girl-friend of mine asked me why I dont have a girl-friend with no hyphen in between. Indeed according to her it wont be difficult for me find one.
Glad to know that dear.
But let me tell you that there have only have only a few people of other sex of all(you included) I know with whom I mebbe would even remotely like to associate that tag after knowing them to the extent I know them now. Then there are these rest, a few are VERY GOOD friends of mine so good I'm so glad I dint try to delete that hyphen for them.
And the rest, a very very few of whom, ya, hyphen could have been deleted, it never got to me because I'm in more need of good friends than a girlfriend.
Conferssion : But ya, I've hit upon(exaggeration) a girl once long ago and even that I'm glad it dint go any further.
Arrrgh
03.16.08 (12:35 pm) [edit]I do it time and again, I dont stick to my plan. I dont study. I end up hating myself for it. I bother about too many things. People bother me for too many things. I waste a lot of time. I get a little too casual about exams. Finally I end up screwing them up.
Arrgh!
Wasnt me!!!
03.15.08 (8:16 pm) [edit]When I die, I'm sure my eyes will be closed and my heart, open........
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Oh great phenomenon controlling human laze, please let me not sleep tonight, I have more than just a littal to study.
After all...But no
03.15.08 (2:11 am) [edit]You say everything and then add an 'after all' as an excuse, no it wont do.
I know and am totally convinced it was nothing but a crude excitement adn that oo at a time when I was not what I am now. But now that its coming back to me, I cant take it up with an 'after all'.
Its not for me, it was never. Still so glad I restrained then.
I should not think about her.
Crash, boom bang
03.13.08 (11:57 pm) [edit]Its all in the perspective.
The war of thoughts.
Should dos Vs Want to dos.
I am not confused, indeed I am convinced butthat feosnt seem to be enough to go ahead.
Safe & secure is a cliche, a bad cliche.
Have overworked my grey cells today, I like it this way, but its exhaustive. And because of that all this conflicting thoughts before dying down for the day.
Summarizing the day, two good things to do but only after 5 litmus-tests ahead.
Acids are sour, isnt it? Hope they are not too acidic on me.
Good night!
Not mine
03.13.08 (10:51 pm) [edit]When you reach the peak of that summit, spread your arms open baring your chest to the cold gutsy winds, the biological clock inside you skips a tick. You have that eternal like calmness in your vicinity with nothing piercing through the layers of snow on top of solid rock turned into such a huge mass of ice.
Then, then do you hear the sound of mountain, the voice of god.
If I know beforehand when I'm going to die, I'll make a Bucket List.
It does make one happy
03.12.08 (8:40 pm) [edit]All the attention, all the glam, all the limelight, all those smiles.
Have been on the other side all this while, still I knew I was better than the rest. Its my time here now, I've done the the things I liked and now I like the fact that I'm liked for the things I like.
Some people
03.11.08 (9:58 pm) [edit]They think, being outspoken is being bold.
Some people think, being different is being good.
They think, superiority comes with isolation.
Some people think, theres only one side to a story.
They think, things they dont like are things that are bad.
Some people think, its fine even if you are on a wrong way but should never give up.
I dont and wont go and tell them all this, because I am not among some who complain. But......
I'm glad, I dont.
Rationale
03.10.08 (9:33 pm) [edit]Somehow seems like the perfect word.
Something which 'SHOULD' be omnipresent for all times.
I urge everyone to follow it. Anything without it looks so dumb. Think and act rationally and you will be god.
Oh Mi Gaawd
03.08.08 (1:03 am) [edit]I think its almost 5-6 years since i started thinking only rationally about god. Since then things my parents and people tell about it doesnt matter much to me.
I am not an atheist and want to believe in the some phenomenon like god.
I am not spiritual or anything because I dont seem, to connect to things like meditation, inner self etc even after trying to do so.
Though I stick with my religion everyhwhere and do usually ceremoniously all that is asked of me to be done, I'm not religious because I cant help my self but feel all religious practices are farce.
I visited a temple after long time recently and that made me realise all this.
I know there is a law/phenomena/or better say a rule book on how things should be and shouldnt be, that people call god. I dont have any problem with the name 'god', so i believe in god.